Weak..

heh..just self-reflecting into my inner self after a few days of errors..I know I'm not suppose to do it..I don't even like/want to do so..yet I did anyway..for what end? no self-satisfaction..no pleasure..not even comfort nor joy or such..heh..so why? no definite answer I guess..only lingering thoughts and feelings that are not too hard to fathom hitherto unclear..personally I despise conflicts and other forms of negativity so this annoys me..a lot..further more they are all from my own course of actions..which made the above arguments..haih..I'm a total mystery to myself at a times..or maybe I'm simply turning away from the fact =P
for what it's worth, it's still lacking..it's me..ciao..