Upcoming Disaster?!

school holiday is starting again..real soon, I'll be back to see my parents, siblings, cousins and etc..are they the source of the disaster u ask??no..of course not..I may be cold and heartless but I never detest my family ever..we share the most similar bloodline after all..the holiday is the cause then??haha..silly..who wouldn't love to have some free times to spend..unless you have a serious case of workaholic that is..good luck surviving the holidays to you I suppose..hehe..like I said earlier, holiday is the time for me to meet my family..to catch up on what's happening to everybody..not that I care too much though..still, it'll do me good to have a stabilize relationship between the family members..I don't think anyone can disagree with that..so what the hell is the disaster about!?well..I just learned that a group of people from JPN Sabah is coming to our district right after the holiday..yes, they are going to observe, supervise and visit each school in this area during their one week of stay..how lovely is that..and to add up the joy..a new program called D'1 is being put into action as I'm typing now which also involved us soon after the holiday..hurray..nice huh..ah well..that's all for the disaster report this time..be sure to tune in for any new informations regarding fun-filled, disastrous activities happening around me..until next time..I'm out..

New Addiction ^^

for those who knew me well enough, they'll  know that I'm an addict..not drug addicted..I'm a game addict..let just say I love to play games..I played a whole range types of games..shooting, strategy, rpg, sims, fighting..and my most favourtite genre would be fantasy-rpg..almost every game I love involved with this theme..they fit my imagination thirst like a well made stew..ahh..so statisfying..hehe..a couple of years back, I got involved with mmorpg..for those who are not familiar with that term, feel free to look it up in wikipedia or something..back to my story, it was love at first sight the moment I found out about the beta testing for Ragnarok Online 7 years ago..man, I was stuck to it like a bee to honey..just couldn't get enough of it..I can say honestly my reason to suck up my matriculation exam was being ADDICTED to RO back then..those sweet memories..and I was still playing it until last year..tried every job classes that game have to offered and when I reached the pinnacle of my passion, I started to hunt for a new thing to indulge to..and this year..I found a new thing to be addicted to..that is DRAGONICA woo-hoo..so, I want to spread this new found enjoyment to all my colleague and friend..just like another friend of mine hook me up to this..haha..this game is easy to play, have cute graphic, many gamers from our country is into it including me, the emotion system is hilarious, have a relationship system(if u find this interesting), a convenient buddy list, and so much more..so if u decide to find something to help take your stress away, I prescript this as a healthy substitute from drugs..here's the homepage in case anyone is interested..

http://dragonica.iahgames.com/site/default.aspx

and here are some eye candies from the game..

if you are in..feel free to pm me..if I'm around at that time, I'll be sure to meet up with you..see you guys ^^

Re-energized ^^

I got myself a new broadband..since the coverage of my previous maxis broadband is really poor here, I bought a new celcom provided broadband to satisfy my need for internet..at last I can be onlining to the max..hurray for me!!

A Long Slumber..

Being without internet connection for 2 month, really made my life seems a little bleak..I can't play online games, download new manganimes, no chatting and of course no updates what-so-ever..sigh..boredom is like a shadow which never leave..wonder how long I can last by faking ignorance and self-realism..

Drowning =P

helpless..suffocating..slowly drowning into the sea of despairs..losing my spirit to move and fight on..I can not feel anymore zealousness..I'm drifting further and further away inside coffined thought of self-pitying..each miss action which I take is making me hate and hating myself even more..while I seek something to keep me apart, I experienced lost in my soul..what is going on??not everything is making any sense to me now..how much longer am I going to fall??I'm not sure until I have reach the bottom..is this the end??I wonder..
But, I haven't tried everything I have yet..when I look back into those many years spent to get here before, I can't let it over just this easy..I want to keep on struggling..try everything until I have nothing more left to attempt..even then, I can't let it go free from my grasp..I shall clench my fists and drag my beaten down being toward any path that I see..as long as I have me, I won't stop..I shall not be halted..even slowly, but surely I will...

"man is not made for defeat..a man can be destroyed, but not defeated" Ernest Hemingway - The Old Man And The Sea..

A new episode..

My life travel had always been a smooth ride..the road itself is very pleasant, straight, wide and less bumpy..for sure things always turn my way and that served me real well..because of that, I've turned into a guy with no interest for a higher goals or anything as fancy..moderation..that's how I am today..
enough about me alone..it's the story of my new environment and me..I had been placed in an area which I considered quite remote..this latest home of mine differ from my usual settlement with a vast magnitude..let say 10th to 20th times the differences rate..not that it's uncivilized or anything but the differences is in term of languages, customs and norms generally..the divergence is so great that while I'm reluctant to say it but I've really been thrown off balance for quite a while now..I've lost sight of my early goals and now dragging myself into each passing days without a real sense of what I'm doing..well that may sound a bit abroad but in a way it is true..facing a new type of environment, language is vital tool for overcoming the other barriers..and I'm having trouble in communication sometimes..which is not a good symptom..several times I felt dispirited and that coming here was a bad idea..that I'm not suitable for this kind of workplace situation etc..
am I going to back away??chicken out now??
no..I guess not..I'm not so great to say I'll find a way to turn things around..I'm no idealist to try every possible insights and ideas out..it's just I know thing will turn out my way in the end..it has always been like that in the past and that how it shall always be in my future..all this troubles, challenges are but one or two of the bumps in my less bumpy travel route..I know, this is my way, and it will suit me well..

testing..

my 1st post in here since my new placement in rural area of Sabah..just checking if it's possible to post a decent stuff with this awfully low coverage I'm getting..here goes..