Poetic..

looking back at those poems, I found some of them which were made by me a long, long time ago..back then I was still in my early teenage age and like to venture into a new field..since learning literature were implemented during that time, I read a lot of poems and even represented my school in a poem competition..that was ancient history though..reading through those poems which I made myself really bring up some nostalgic memories..I was reminded about how small I was back then while trying to fill in a large gap left by my predecessor..at times I even felt helpless and those poems were mostly written as a way for me to express all those thoughts and worries..geez, even I have a cute side like that before..hahaha..anyway, writing helps me to relax and calmed my troubled soul..I don't mean to brag but my essay writing are quite good at that time but what I lack is the creativity of a poet when writing..so all those poems are very straight-forward and kind of embarrassing really..heh..I'll put 1 here for all to read..

Sometimes I’m cool,

Mostly I’m cold..

 

Sometimes I’m so full,

Mostly I’m just a fool..

 

Sometimes I act don’t care,

Mostly I can’t help but to scare..

 

Sometimes I become unapproachable,

Mostly I was still amenable..

 

Sometimes I’ll hurt,

Mostly I’m then one who’s hurt..

 

Sometimes I do foolish things,

Mostly I like to show everything..

 

Sometimes I can be cocky,

Mostly I tried to be flashy..

 

Sometimes I present sarcasm,

Mostly I feel veneration..

 

Sometimes I reveal the light,

Mostly I conceal the dark..

 

Sometimes I showed it outside,

Mostly I keep it all inside..

as u guys can see, some of the words may sounded bombastic but it's all thanks to my meddling with a thesaurus back then..getting synonyms was not much of a trouble for me..I just need to think of the words which can covey what I meant and then search for other unique word which convey the same meaning..I am creative in a way I guess..hehehe..well, the ME right now are not interested with these kind of things anymore..although I'm definitely confident with my ability to compose lyrics and words but I rather not use that as one of my shining talents..it's such a hassle really..

another long one.. C&P X

been chatting with a friend of mine a while ago..as I'm a man with great communication skills and keeping the conversation going, so I manage to juggle different topics at a time which will lengthen our discussion until hours if I feel like it..using my common sense and belief made-in-real-time, I'll attract their attention to continue talking with me..making sound and loud arguments have always been my main point in gaining interest..even if I am not too sure myself about the particular topic I'll just play around in a safe degree until I'm confident too venture even further..this particular chat log is a minor example of how it's used to be done by me -

afzrd001: toilet..

brb..

grafitti??

winfer_lianne: yeah. Toilet the famous place for student's graffiti

u know, conteng2

afzrd001: yeah..

uncivilezed art..

winfer_lianne: u've done this b4...don't u?

afzrd001: uncivilized..

nope..

I use proper pen n paper method..

winfer_lianne: yr friends will agree with me

 :P

 u were one of the,

 *them

afzrd001: i'm sure they'll agree with my arguments..

winfer_lianne: ok. sorry. kidding.

afzrd001: why??

reminiscing ur past glory??

winfer_lianne: woi !!

excuuusssee me

 never

ever

tak pernah

afzrd001: so u say..

winfer_lianne: it's vandalisme.

afzrd001: it's more towards cruelty..

winfer_lianne: really? it's just for fun ..

no harm.. in the name of art.

afzrd001: so tell me the meaning of the word "cruel"..

 maybe ur defining r diff from mine..

winfer_lianne: savage

afzrd001: ic..

just that then??

winfer_lianne: let see....cruel is deine as inhuman, violence, irrational thinking & behavior

may I add immature too?

criminal-like, gangsters.

afzrd001: ic ur poi..

winfer_lianne: whats yr definition?

afzrd001: zalim=tidak meletakkan sesuatu pd tempatnya..

learnt it long time ago..

winfer_lianne: ah. the islamic def.

says it all, huh?

dats v. good of u

afzrd001: most of my principles are established long ago..

when I can think straight n sound..

winfer_lianne: ok. I'm not so good in this, i prefer the logic & critical thinking.

might have the pillars, but for the sake of knowledge, i supposed

so yeah. my bad

afzrd001: y so..

life is an ongoing learning..

I mysf might still hv more to learn..

winfer_lianne: learn. is easy. to unlearn is not

what am i rambling about? haish.

afzrd001: habit..

winfer_lianne: got yr point.

gotta change the norms.

afzrd001: if that what we need to do then we should..

we can nvr be too sure about it ourselves..

winfer_lianne: deep~

afzrd001: lol..

winfer_lianne: :P 

afzrd001: maybe I'll copy this chat log n post it for my next blog entry XD..

winfer_lianne: no. why should u ????

but it's a new idea....

afzrd001: just for fun..

why else..

so there you have it..saying I'm really good in communicating might be a bit much but I can keep the interest level high at all time..that's what you'll need the most when involving into an important conversation or just chatting with a friends..also if it's with someone u like, better try to keep that level terned on to the max so he/she will not get bored easily when talking with you..just sharing some tips here..even in works we sometimes need to communicate with other people which we have something to gain from them..so keeping the communication lively and heated is part of the way for us getting what we need from then..that's all for now then..

C&P IX

Love's Curse

by Jessica L. Reed (GothsMourning)

 

She couldn't stand the silence,

She couldn't stand the tears,

She couldn't stand her life,

After only sixteen years.

 

He was her entire world,

She gave him all she possessed,

He did the same in return,

They were thought to be obsessed.

 

Their love couldn't be reached,

Couldn't be touched by any other,

They were all they needed,

They only wanted each other.

 

From two they became one,

They made each other whole,

They filled each other's voids,

They filled each other's souls.

 

Everything was perfect,

Everything was great,

Till one damning day,

They were told they'd have to wait.

 

Her parents were moving her,

To a distant place,

They'd be torn apart,

Couldn't see each other's face.

 

They swore they'd make it work,

Vowed to stay together,

Didn't care about the distance,

They'd be together forever.

 

She gave it all she had,

She did her very best,

But he still slipped away,

He didn't pass the test.

 

While she was thinking of him,

He had found another,

He said he couldn't do it,

He talked it over with his mother.

 

She was devastated,

Her heart was torn straight out,

She'd been such a fool,

She should have listened to her doubt.

 

From then on they stopped talking,

Never spoke again,

While he was with his new girl,

She was dreaming of him.

 

Every day she'd cry,

She tried to fight off all the pain,

But the hurting never stopped,

Just shot through every vein.

 

Months went by since the ending,

But she only grew worse,

She couldn't accept what happened,

This was love's curse.

 

It finally overtook her,

She couldn't stand it anymore,

She grabbed a picture of him,

And snuck out the front door.

 

She walked into the woods,

Found a secluded place,

Kept thinking of the past,

And how she'd been replaced.

 

Hours later she was found,

In a pool of her blood,

And beside her they found,

His picture in the mud.

 

On the back read her reason,

Why she took her life,

What he did to her,

It seemed he had held the knife.

 

Though physically he didn't kill her,

He tore her soul apart,

It was obvious how she did,

It was from a broken heart.

I had been keeping poems, articles or stories I found on the net for years..the one above is just one of the many more I had..I found it's a good habit to store things like this as I can read it again sometimes later when I'm bored..most of all, I can use them as a base material for a post, message or etc..it really paid off..by the way, the poem above is a very dark one..plus very long..hehe..maybe that's why I feel attracted to keep it with me all these years..lol..just kidding..I keep it as a reminder so I'll never be the one that hold the knife someday..but when I think back, maybe I've been playing with a few knives without me even realizing..

Timefull XD

Is that really a word??well I don't care much..it's just a tittle anyway..I'll be having a lot of free times in this coming month or so I guessed XD..examination, practical, lectures and etc are all in the past now..the only thing left is this going on course..anyone familiar with the term KISSM??it's the acro for Kursus Induksi Sistem Saraan Malaysia..too lazy too translate so in my own simple words it'll be a course for introducing the working system..hurm, that didn't sounds close at all..don't bother about it..just a normal course I guess..full of talks for hours that for sure..and I recall hearing there will be an examination based on the content of the course at the end of this month..sigh, can't they let us go peacefully..heh..I would prefer an early holiday since this seems to be my last month as a student afterall..gonna be a working man starting December..sometimes it even feels unreal to me myself..but hey, life must go on..there's no stopping the flow of time anyway..eventhough I'll love to-

spent time with my classmate n friends..trips, bowling, karaoke or whatever..I don't mind..an,

all boys out sounded pretty nice anytime..although I prefer the company of some girls too..then,

maybe I'll join an outdoor camps..which I prefer much, much more over sitting for hours listening sleepily..so,

I can flung myself out into the wilderness seeking new knowledges and new adventures..or,

just chilling out by myself..thinking about what to do next and fantasizing how my future will be..

well..fantasy and reality would always found themselves contradicting each other..there's no helping to it then..better to tough it out until the end as usual..that's the stuff I'm made of anyway..good luck to me then =P

C&P VIII

Siapakah orang yang sibuk ?
Orang yang sibuk adalah orang yang tidak
mengambil berat akan waktu solatnya
seolah-olah ia mempunyai kerajaan seperti
kerajaan Nabi Sulaiman a.s

Siapakah orang yang manis senyumanya?
Orang yang mempunyai senyuman yang manis
adalah orang yang ditimpa musibah
lalu dia kata "Inna lillahi wainna illaihi rajiuun." Lalu
sambil berkata,"Ya Rabbi Aku redha
dengan ketentuanMu ini", sambil mengukir
senyuman.

Siapakah orang yang kaya?
Orang yang kaya adalah orang yang bersyukur
dengan apa yang ada dan tidak lupa
akan kenikmatan dunia yang sementara ini.

Siapakah orang yang miskin?
Orang yang miskin adalah orang tidak puas
dengan nikmat yang ada sentiasa
menumpuk-numpukkan harta.

Siapakah orang yang rugi?
Orang yang rugi adalah orang yang sudah sampai
usia pertengahan namun masih berat
untuk melakukan ibadat dan amal-amal kebaikan.

Siapakah orang yang paling cantik?
Orang yang paling cantik adalah orang yang
mempunyai akhlak yang baik.

Siapakah orang yang mempunyai rumah yang
paling luas?
Orang yang mempunyai rumah yang paling luas
adalah orang yang mati membawa
amal-amal kebaikan di mana kuburnya akan di
perluaskan saujana mata memandang.

Siapakah orang yang mempunyai rumah yang
sempit lagi dihimpit?
Orang yang mempunyai rumah yang sempit
adalah orang yang mati tidak membawa amal
amal kebaikkan lalu kuburnya menghimpitnya.

Siapakah orang yang mempunyai akal?
Orang yang mempunyai akal adalah orang-orang
yang menghuni syurga kelak
kerana telah mengunakan akal sewaktu di dunia
untuk menghindari siksa neraka.

Siapakah org yg KEDEKUT ?
Orang yg kedekut ialah org yg membiar atau
membuang mesej ini begitu sahaja,
malah dia tidak akan menyampaikan pula pada
org lain.

at least I'm not too stingy XD

Test ur eyes on this..

it's not moving you know XD

So it seems..

girls hv so much demand from a boy..so I'll make it short and say I hv only 1 demand from girls..that is I want....



the girl to come up to me 1st..so that I can distinguish between the girls who's interesting n the types which bored me to death..I don't have time to mingle with both sides anyway..n by the end of it, maybe....


as simple as that..maybe(again)..hard to find statisfying girl..considered yourself lucky if I tilt my head over to look..