A bit humanitarian..For Palestine..

while surfing the www just now searching for some material about the Israeli-Palestine war, I came across a simple poem..it was created by someone by the name of Datong Liu..his poem was created in regard of what is happening in the devastated land of Palestine..and while I was reading this poem of him, suddenly I felt intrigued by the fact that it never occured to me to write any kind of article regarding the injustice which befallen my bretheren there in Palastine..given the ability to think and write various topic, having the gadget which can help voice my thought out to the world, living a safe and quite life in my country, I had abandon the fact that there is other thing which I can do for the Palastine people beside donating spare changes and feeling sympathy for their suffering whenever I came across news about them..I realized how far I had pushed them away from my heart until I felt there is nothing I could do to help them..this is so wrong..I had let myself be damned but I'm not about to let anyone else fall under the cruel grips of my enemies..so I call upon myself, and those who feel they can do a bit more than sharing money and grief to raise up and put your thought and feelings into words..I kow there are already a lot of other people in the whole world doing the exact same thing that I'm starting to do but they are not me nor you.. ask yourself this question, what else can you do??


you don't have to panic run into cover each time you hear a heli's motor roaring by..

Here is the poem which I mentioned earlier..I don't think the author will mind if I shared it with other people so I c&p it to my page..

~Poem For Palastine~

And everywhere I looked I saw pain
Mothers' angry eyes, fathers loosing sanity,
Grandfathers digging for tomorrow
Finding his grandson without a breath,
I hear the cries of babies, mothers, fathers, families, and bombs.
Silent malnutritioned children
Trying to save their breath for tomorrow
Their skin, like spandex covering a defeated skeleton
Eyes wondering without hope, not knowing why
Not even having the notion of thinking of cause and effect
No more tears to cry, just hungry
Peace corps tired and hopeless wondering why there are so many
House that used to shelter the warm love of a family
Shattered like glass against the concrete of democracy
Bridges that once symbolize our connection, broken
A child pulled at my pants and spoke in a foreign tongue "Sa'edni"
And no translation was needed
Eyes blinking tears, I hugged my fellow human being
And my head went to the WMD paid by US tax dollars
And all I could think was "why?"

by Datong Liu

I can't imagine this kind of sight must really felt..

I might never make an impact with this small thing which I'm doing..yet this is what I'll do..all that I can do..as me..

Looking Into The Future..

2008 is over and here comes 2009..My, my..it has been 23 years already since I was first born into this world..a period which I myself doesn't know wether it's already long or short..and I'm not even sure if I'll ever be living my life to the fullest..even so, what I can do for now strive forward..like I had always do back then..

snorkeling vs snorekling..

during my last visit to the beach a few days ago, I went snorkeling..which was my 1st time actually..I had never participate in any activities involving being under water for a long period of time beside this holding-breath-under-the-water competition which usually held during short trips to the beach with a bunch of friends..this involve a group of guys and sometime girls also try to held their breath under the water too see which one of them that could do so for as the longest period..haah~ it sure bring back memories..good times, good times..anyway, unlike the usual snorkeling activities which we done in the open seas, I snorkeled in a man-made pool which was filled with salt-water from the sea and more or the less a simple under water ecosystem..this include marine life such as multiple kind of fishes, one sea turtle, man made corals and a few sunken tires and ship..well not the big kind of ship really..it was just a normally seen fisherman's boat a.k.a the "sampan"..I had plenty of fun inside there..watching, feeding, touching the fishes give me a lot of ease in both mind and heart..it makes me forget about the harsh, hot land..wonder if we could build a utopia inside of this cold, serenading, under water world..
moving on to snorekling..yes this is a word which seems quite similar but have another kind of meaning..this term comes from the root word "snore" which is used to show an act of snoring during sleep..and of course, I made it up myself to spice up the title a little bit..don't use this word in an academic writing..I used it to show the wonderful and relaxing holiday I am having right now..which I spent most of the time on my bed..but I don't snore while I'm sleeping of course..I exaggerate the tittle a little bit..
seems like this will be my final post for this year..not pretty much to covered up another year ending..well like I care..
hehehe
^_^

seeking for a lifetime's companion??

I went to yet another one of my friend marriage ceremony yesterday..it seems more of the people that I used to know have started moving onto the next level in life..the life of marriage..heh, some of them are already in the world of parenthood right now with two kids..people around my age group are all starting to leave their singleness and share their world with another person..now they have one more pair of ears which listen to their worries and problems instead of their own..while I'm still licking my own wound they already have someone to dress their injuries and soothes the pain..they chat with each other, holding hand happily and I'm just talk to myself with my hands deep inside my pocket..and much more had they gained from this life of marriage..I wish them happiness from the bottom of my empty heart..



I can just wonder, if I'll ever find my own happiness like theirs..when I am....me..well whatever will be will be, I suppose..right now, I still had a long road ahead of me without a slightest idea of when or how it will end..even whitout someone to hold my hand and accompany me through my journey, I must carry on..dragging my boredom on my back..

hahaha
^_^

side notes: this is not an advertisement for an ice breaking..

0 existence

the title above is suppose to be read as 'zero existence'..just so you know..


laying back on my bed with ruffled bedsheet and comforter..I raise my arm high and then put it across my face..haih~~what am I doing??thinking about myself, wandering through my fantasies, getting lost in thought, fathoming what my future will be..all this while laying motionlessly on the crumpled bed cloth..
so much for holidays..I'll be spending most of the time I have on bed as ussual..while my friends and colleagues probably making use of their time with family bonding, trips and dates, I will be here on my bed for 3/4 of my daily life..I'm not sick, involved in accident or whatever..this is just what I do during my free times..shifting back into the shadow..relaxing..rejuvenating..hibernating and so on..

haaaahhhh~~this is life..

hehehe
^_^

Melayu!!

Ini terbitan pertama aku dalam BM untuk blog ni..sebab utamanya adalah,aku nak menulis tentang bangsa aku dan aku tak nak gunakan bahasa lain untuk itu..jadi aku pun guna bahasa yang boleh difahami oleh semua golongan yang berada di dalam rumpun Melayu seantero dunia..
setiap kali baca surat khabar,ada tiga segmen yang paling aku tak suka nak tengok tapi terpaksa tengok..segmen jenayah, hiburan dan politik..sebabnya ketiga-tiga segmen ini banyak menonjolkan kisah-kisah yang memalukan bangsa Melayu..kadangkala aku berasa segan nak menjamah cerita-cerita sedemikian kerana ianya seakan-akan aku sedang melihat kealpaan diri sendiri..tetapi untuk mengetahui apakah gerangan keadaan orang Melayu masa kini, aku terpaksa menguatkan tekad dan teruskan membaca..maka tersingkaplah satu persatu kisah sedih, pedih dan memalukan anak bangsa Melayu masa kini..
berfokuskan kepada segmen hiburan kali ini, aku memang menyampah kalo tengok gambar-gambar artis Melayu terutamanya perempuan yang ada pada kertas surat khabar itu..belum lagi aku membaca kisah-kisah menarik dan sensasi kononnya berkenaan diri mereka..pada pendapat diri aku yang berkemungkinan jumud ini, cerita seperti itu tiada kaitannya dengan diri aku lantas tak perlulah nak dihebah-hebahkan ke serata negara..publisiti-publisiti seperti inilah yang membuatkan mereka semakin rancak berkecimpung dalam dunia yang dipenuhi maksiat dan dosa itu..kemudian keluarlah pula kata-kata seperti "saya sekadar mencari sumber rezeki yang sah" dan "saya masih sedar batas-batas agama" yang membuatkan aku semakin kagum dengan keberanian mereka memperkatakan kebodohan diri sendiri..bukan niat aku nak mencerca bidang yang mereka ceburi malahan diri mereka yang kerap terpapar di kaca televisyen, majalah dan sebagainya, tetapi mentaliti dan ketidaksedaran diri mereka itu yang membuatkan aku cukup bengang dengan cara hidup mereka.."kalau kau nak sangat hidup macam orang barat, baik kau pergi saja ke sana" antara yang selalu bermain dalam fikiran aku tiapkali aku mendapat berita berkenaan artis-artis ini..
kejayaan terbaru, ASK2008..tahniah kepada pihak yang berkenaan kerana telah mendedahkan kepada rakyat di Malaysia khususnya remaja dan kanak-kanak berkenaan dunia hiburan masa kini..dedahan tersebut banyak mempamerkan aksi-aksi artis yang mendedah kepada masyarakat muda ini..dengan adanya pendedahan seperti ini, maka golongan-golongan muda yang akan menjadi pendokong bangsa di masa akan datang akan menjadi semakin terdedah kepada dunia tersebut..mudah-mudahan mereka juga mampu menandingi kadar dedahan itu apabila mereka semakin mendedahkan diri mereka di kawasan-kawasan awam seluruh ibu kota..siaran seperti inilah yang memberi pendedahan kepada mereka mengenai bahagian-bahagian tubuh badan yang perlu didedahkan untuk menarik perhatian masyarakat..dedahan-dedahan ini mampu menjana lebih banyak lagi gejala sosial yang mampu menjunamkan lagi nilai moral dan ekonomi warganegara Malaysia di masa akan datang..tahniah sekali lagi dan terima kasih daun keladi lain kali dedahlah lagi..
bukan soal aurat yang aku cukup bengangkan tetapi ke'bangang'an pihak-pihak tertentu yang mempamerkan pendedahan artis itu kepada masyarakat negara ini khususnya generasi muda..sikap mengaut suka mengaut keuntungan mudah inilah yang menyumbang kepada kejatuhan nilai moral muda-mudi masa kini..cukup pening aku memikirkan masalah mentaliti masuk dunia hiburan terus tak sedarkan diriini..belum lagi isu 'dunia Melayu' yang selalu disebut-sebut macam gah sangat padahal tak segagah manapun..
apa itu dunia Melayu??mungkin ada rezeki di lain hari aku akan sisipkan disini..pada masa ini, aku sudah lapar sebenarnya..perut mula meminta untuk diisi jadi sampi disini sajalah buat masa ini..
hehehe
^_^

mask

everyday, I wake up from my slumber, go the bathroom, brush my teeth, wash my face and then back to my room..I start changing into my daily clothes while thinking about this day ahead of me..all the chores waiting for me, all these peoples I need to meet, all the things I need to do..just then, I put on the 'mask'..
this mask is not like the one you can buy in the shop or like anything you saw in a masquarade..this mask is made from a layer of skin which really is my face..this mask can talk, laugh and keep smiling through out the day..it is as lively as any other faces u seen or have yet it is just a mask..
the reason I call it a mask, because it serves that function really well..keeping my real expression hidden underneath it so nobody will notice what my feeling is actually at that time..people will blame me for acting this way..some might even says that I'm being hyphocrite..but I'm not doing this for my own gain..it's for their own good I tell you..I mean people cannot ussualy stand to be asking for help from someone with a bored and gloomy face..they'll feel like they are much inferior to this kind of people if it is them they are asking for a favour from..it's nobody fault..really..it's just the way a human is..
I got a few other masks which I wear when the time needed..a sad mask for a teary occassion, a straight faced mask in a serious event and even an innocent-guilty looking mask which I use when avoiding conflict with others..sometimes I even make a special mask for special circumstances example loving looking during a date, a concern look for an unfortunate event and more..yet, all of them are just used to hide my real, hollow looking face..cause of the intense boredom which I suffered..
other people also have their own mask..I presume this, especially actors, celebrities and politicians must all had a dark side which they can never shown to public..I understand even normal people have to fake their expressions once in a while also..that is a gift which they should not have to begin with..because from there, lies, betrayal, hate, jealousy, greed, gluttony, sloth and pride were born into human..with just a mere hope, they must cling thightly to continue on surviving their brief lifespan..if only they couldn't use this mask, the world would have been an even better place for them..
althought, it will be the same for me..always had been and always to come..