Posting Concluded..

I'm going to Sabah..yay for me ^^..hehe..things might be going to get tough on me but this is what I asked for..so I'm very excited because given the chance to go there..now I can look up for a speedy recovery..

Bed-Ridden =(

I got Chicken-Pox XD..sigh..now, the me that I look is not the me that I wish to see..I just hope this will all end soon..it's hurting my pride badly..

Whimps..

too much free times can led to boredom..that's where I ended myself now..sigh..while rumming through my songs collection, I found several which had been my favorite back in the younger days..the thing is, most of them are english songs..only a few of the Malay song get me hyped up..come to think of it, I rarely listen to any Malay song or band except for XPDC or Butterfingers during those time..not that I had anything skeptic toward our local music industries, but it just didn't occur to me back then..I never favor any artists or band but only their songs..still the same even now..anyway, it made me think deeply..why was I attracted to them??what kind of thing that I found in them??how is it theirs any difference than ours??when I hit myself with these questions, I realized an answer..it's the LYRICS..yup..the word in their songs fascinated me the most..again, no skepticism to our local song writers or whatever..I was in love with how they put the words together making them into a fine song..when I listen to those song, I can imagine all sort of images in my mind..all of them led by the story of the song..here's one of the lyric which I'm hearing right now..what kind of story can u make out of this one??

Blurry-Puddle Of Mudd

Everything's so blurry
And everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty
And everything is so messed up
Pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I Stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I'll protect you
From all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
Imagine where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far


Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face

Everyone is changing
There's no one left that's real
So make up your own ending
And let me know just how you feel
'Cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I Stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
You could be my scene
Know that I will save you
From all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well, you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me


Oh,
Nobody told me what you thought
Nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Told you where to run away
Nobody told you where to hide
Nobody told you what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Showed you when to run away

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me

NOOOOOO!

This pain you gave to me

This pain you gave to me

Take it all away

Take it all away

This pain you gave to me

This pain you gave to me

Take it all away

This pain you gave to me

let me state this again..I'm bored..so this is what killing time meant right??

These Final Moment..

been busy with the kissm..and also the connection was not so good these past couple of days actually..so I hadn't made any new entry so far..this 1??I'm in the middle of packing up my stuffs right now..taking a short break and thought maybe I'll update my blog for a bit..plus the connection is going rather smoothly so I can't let this opportunity slip pass me by..after, this maybe the last time I'll be texting in this journal of mine as a student..heh..really now..the idea of me becoming a working guy seems so close now but it still feels unreal just as much..I'd visualized myself in the situation for thousands of times already..yet I can't grasped the reality of those visions just yet..does this means that even though I act composed and steady all the time I'm still scared inside..sigh..that is so immature of me..looks like there's more that I need to learn for the time to come..well, learning will never stops after all..hehehe =p

To Busy or Not To Busy..

that's a parody from Shakespeare's "To Be or Not To Be"..I heard that KISSM's assignments is due this Friday..to tell the truth, I'm not feeling any heat nor motivated to start working on any of the given task yet..say I'm lazy or I'm ignorant or I'm a procrastinator,  I don't plan to burn the midnight oil doing it..I'd rather stay up playing games or just sleep and recover my strength for the next day to come..heh..yeah it's so wrong but I can't seem to help it myself..I know I can do it once I put my hands to work but I really, really, REALLY don't feel like going anything yet..well, maybe just the collaboration form for now..sigh..like I said earlier..I'm in a very non-motivated mood to start working right now..shouldn't but nothing seems to make sense for now except for this boredom and selfish thought..in the end, I ended up completing this stuff..

I don't know what to say..

I don't know what to speak..

I don't know what to ask..

I don't know what to think..

 

want to console you..

but I'm not sure how..

want to soothe you..

but I'm not sure if I can..

 

if you don't mind..

and if you want to..

throw it out..

this soul can listen..

it will bear it..

and I'm sure it won't break..

 

you don't need to understand..

you don't need to care..

but if you ever need me..

trust me I'll be there..

zzz..I made this 1 about 4-5 years ago..it's a short message based for the hand phone SMS system..I said I completed it but I just changed the words from the very SHORT FORMS to a much more adequate style..recalling back to that time, it's a keen memory which I'll never forget..well not yet anyway..hehehe..the HOTTEST topic to be discussed about now, is where in the world am I'll to end up teaching later..narrow that down where in the country then because I'm not going to teach outside the country anyway..maybe I'll post it here when I know about the place officially later on..

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A story..

This is a story..about a guy..he had a feeling towards a girl which he kept for almost 4 years..just because he isn't sure whether his feeling is true or not..because earlier, he had fallen for another girl which went oversea studying and promised to wait for her return with an answer..in order to keep that promise and be true toward his own feeling, he kept holding it for those 2 long years..while the other girl is away, he decided to put a barrier between himself and the girl who's with him at that time..he decided to put on a mask shielding all of his passion deep underneath it..while he's waiting, he can't help noticing how interesting that girl really is..several time he lost control of his own will and nearly went ahead of himself but recovered just in time..sensing he couldn't keep himself in control if things went on the way it was back then, he started to act differently toward that girl..he teased on her, playing around with other girls and so on..he even used a different nick name to see if it's true for the girl to have feeling for him..even when he's sure she is the one for him he still couldn't break his promise..he was hoping for that girl to stay away from him and it works..it keeps her at bay..finally, the girl he had waited for come back..when he asked her for an answer she replied with a "Sorry"..she couldn't accept him into her life..the guy knew the answer would come out that way..but, he decided to be honest and kept his promise to the end..now that he's free, he turn around to look at the other girl which was beside him all those time..the girl which he toyed upon, and occasionally hurt..but she's not looking at him anymore..then he realized, that girl had also turned away from him..not because she couldn't accept him but because she was hurt real bad..that guy was overcome by guilt..he cursed all the actions he had taken..he regretted the way he acted toward her..but it was already too late for him..later he found a note the girl had typed..the girl said she had loved but it was too much for herself to bear..and he knew it was for him although it was never delivered..he realized how wrong he was but he could never went back to the beginning and take a different path..try as he might but he could never undone what have been done..so in the end, he stand up into the light and confessed his true feeling, for her to hear because he want her to know he was already hers all the time..and he's truly sorry for all he had done..then he bowed down, holding back on his regret and walk away..the curtain slowly closed behind..that is how the story ended for him..

so..how was the story then..the rain brings up a melancholy feeling and I can't help it but to write this whole thing up.."Is it a true story?" some may ask..I say it is..my father had once said to me and he's very proud of it "opportunity knocks on every door, but only once" and that would suit as the moral of the story very much..but to me, being true to oneself is not a sin..by doing something wholeheartedly, it's as good as a job well done regardless of the outcome..so just as the guy in the story had done, I'll take off my hat and bow down for now..the end..

The Parting..

both my parents have gone away now..not that they have passed  or anything..they just went to the Holy Land performing the Haj..I'll not be seeing them for about a month or so..this is the first parting that I mention above..the second parting will be with my friends and colleagues which are going to get their posting places in a few days..well, some of them have already received the informant later which was delivered to each respective houses..so their parents had contacted and informed them about the news..my household is empty for now so I wouldn't know if any letter regarding my posting information arrived yet..I don't care much about where I'll be posted too just I need to know for the sake of packing up and some other trivial matters..I'm the one who is in charge of the house for now so I need to make preparation in case I'm going to go far away..my younger siblings are now over at our relative house for the time being until I can came back from my studies..anyway, the fact here is that I'll be parting with my classmates, batch, juniors and the whole institutional members which I attend for the past few years..the time has finally arrives for us  to go our separate ways..everyone will be walking down the path of working without any clues about whether we'll ever meet again  in the future or not..still, this is the route everyone must follow in their way to continue living..dead man won't need this kind of stuff right..heh..then I'll also be parting with my own life..as a student..like I mentioned earlier, this is the path I must follow as a process of growing up into adulthood..the first part of my life is going to end and it's time to trod along the second chapter..let it be alone or as a group, I'll still be embarking on this ongoing journey called life until the time that is given to me is up..I prayed so my wills shall never wither and my spirits will not be lost..I also pray for my other comrades wishing them courages that never falls especially those who's going to the remote areas..it takes lot of mental and spiritual firmness for one to be able to perform their duty well deep in the jungle..hehehe..good luck to those going to Sabah and Sarawak (mar, azmil, budi and those who will be getting their places soon)..I might be joining u guys if given the chance..but I'll never know for sure until tomorrow or the days to come..to all the other PISMK-OUM students all around the country, good luck and I wish you guys all the best - sincerely Ahmad Fikri Zulkifli

C&P XI

:heNsem gUy VS xheNsem gUy~~

Kalau lelaki handsome pendiam
Perempuan akan cakap:: woow, cool giler...
kalau lelaki tak handsome pendiam
Perempuan akan cakap: eh perasan bagus...

kalau lelaki handsome berbuat jahat
Perempuan akan kata: nobody's perfect
kalau lelaki tak handsome berbuat jahat
perempuan akan cakap: memang.... muka pun
macam pecah rumah!

kalau lelaki handsome menolong perempuan yg
diganggu
perempuan akan cakap: wah.. machonya.. macam
hero filem!
kalau lelaki tak handsome menolong perempuan
yang diganggu
Perempuan akan kata: entah2 kawan dia...

kalau lelaki handsome dapat perempuan cantik
perempuan akan kata: sepadan sangat...
kalau lelaki tak handsome dapat perempuan cantik
perempuan akan kata: mesti kena bomoh
perempuan tuh!

kalau lelaki handsome ditinggal kekasih
perempuan akan kata: jangan sedih, kan saya ada..
kalau lelaki tak handsome ditinggal kekasih
perempuan akan kata:...(terdiam, tapi telunjuknya
meliuk-liuk dari atas ke bawah, patutlah, tengok
saja luarannya)...

kalau lelaki handsome penyayang binatang
perempuan akan cakap: perasaannya
halus...penuh kasih sayang
kalau lelaki tak handsome penyayang binatang
perempuan akan cakap: sesama keluarga
memang harus menyayangi...

kalau lelaki handsome bawa BMW
perempuan akan cakap: matching... hebat luar
dalam
kalau lelaki tak handsome bawa BMW
perempuan akan cakap: bang, bosnya mana?...

kalau lelaki handsome tak mau bergambar
perempuan akan cakap: pasti takut kalau2
gambarnya tersebar
kalau lelaki tak handsome tak mau bergambar
perempuan akan kata: tak sanggup melihat
hasilnya ya?...

kalau lelaki handsome menuang air ke gelas perempuan
perempuan akan cakap:ini barulah lelaki gentlemen
kalau lelaki tak handsome menuang air ke gelas perempuan
perempuan akan cakap: naluri pembantu, memang
begitu....

kalau lelaki handsome bersedih hati
perempuan akan cakap: let me be your shoulder to cry on
kalau lelaki tak handsome bersedih hati
perempuan akan kata: kuat nangis!! lelaki ke
bukan ni?

hurm..lot of c&p this month..ah well..it's getting late anyway..so this will just have to do..

Poetic..

looking back at those poems, I found some of them which were made by me a long, long time ago..back then I was still in my early teenage age and like to venture into a new field..since learning literature were implemented during that time, I read a lot of poems and even represented my school in a poem competition..that was ancient history though..reading through those poems which I made myself really bring up some nostalgic memories..I was reminded about how small I was back then while trying to fill in a large gap left by my predecessor..at times I even felt helpless and those poems were mostly written as a way for me to express all those thoughts and worries..geez, even I have a cute side like that before..hahaha..anyway, writing helps me to relax and calmed my troubled soul..I don't mean to brag but my essay writing are quite good at that time but what I lack is the creativity of a poet when writing..so all those poems are very straight-forward and kind of embarrassing really..heh..I'll put 1 here for all to read..

Sometimes I’m cool,

Mostly I’m cold..

 

Sometimes I’m so full,

Mostly I’m just a fool..

 

Sometimes I act don’t care,

Mostly I can’t help but to scare..

 

Sometimes I become unapproachable,

Mostly I was still amenable..

 

Sometimes I’ll hurt,

Mostly I’m then one who’s hurt..

 

Sometimes I do foolish things,

Mostly I like to show everything..

 

Sometimes I can be cocky,

Mostly I tried to be flashy..

 

Sometimes I present sarcasm,

Mostly I feel veneration..

 

Sometimes I reveal the light,

Mostly I conceal the dark..

 

Sometimes I showed it outside,

Mostly I keep it all inside..

as u guys can see, some of the words may sounded bombastic but it's all thanks to my meddling with a thesaurus back then..getting synonyms was not much of a trouble for me..I just need to think of the words which can covey what I meant and then search for other unique word which convey the same meaning..I am creative in a way I guess..hehehe..well, the ME right now are not interested with these kind of things anymore..although I'm definitely confident with my ability to compose lyrics and words but I rather not use that as one of my shining talents..it's such a hassle really..

another long one.. C&P X

been chatting with a friend of mine a while ago..as I'm a man with great communication skills and keeping the conversation going, so I manage to juggle different topics at a time which will lengthen our discussion until hours if I feel like it..using my common sense and belief made-in-real-time, I'll attract their attention to continue talking with me..making sound and loud arguments have always been my main point in gaining interest..even if I am not too sure myself about the particular topic I'll just play around in a safe degree until I'm confident too venture even further..this particular chat log is a minor example of how it's used to be done by me -

afzrd001: toilet..

brb..

grafitti??

winfer_lianne: yeah. Toilet the famous place for student's graffiti

u know, conteng2

afzrd001: yeah..

uncivilezed art..

winfer_lianne: u've done this b4...don't u?

afzrd001: uncivilized..

nope..

I use proper pen n paper method..

winfer_lianne: yr friends will agree with me

 :P

 u were one of the,

 *them

afzrd001: i'm sure they'll agree with my arguments..

winfer_lianne: ok. sorry. kidding.

afzrd001: why??

reminiscing ur past glory??

winfer_lianne: woi !!

excuuusssee me

 never

ever

tak pernah

afzrd001: so u say..

winfer_lianne: it's vandalisme.

afzrd001: it's more towards cruelty..

winfer_lianne: really? it's just for fun ..

no harm.. in the name of art.

afzrd001: so tell me the meaning of the word "cruel"..

 maybe ur defining r diff from mine..

winfer_lianne: savage

afzrd001: ic..

just that then??

winfer_lianne: let see....cruel is deine as inhuman, violence, irrational thinking & behavior

may I add immature too?

criminal-like, gangsters.

afzrd001: ic ur poi..

winfer_lianne: whats yr definition?

afzrd001: zalim=tidak meletakkan sesuatu pd tempatnya..

learnt it long time ago..

winfer_lianne: ah. the islamic def.

says it all, huh?

dats v. good of u

afzrd001: most of my principles are established long ago..

when I can think straight n sound..

winfer_lianne: ok. I'm not so good in this, i prefer the logic & critical thinking.

might have the pillars, but for the sake of knowledge, i supposed

so yeah. my bad

afzrd001: y so..

life is an ongoing learning..

I mysf might still hv more to learn..

winfer_lianne: learn. is easy. to unlearn is not

what am i rambling about? haish.

afzrd001: habit..

winfer_lianne: got yr point.

gotta change the norms.

afzrd001: if that what we need to do then we should..

we can nvr be too sure about it ourselves..

winfer_lianne: deep~

afzrd001: lol..

winfer_lianne: :P 

afzrd001: maybe I'll copy this chat log n post it for my next blog entry XD..

winfer_lianne: no. why should u ????

but it's a new idea....

afzrd001: just for fun..

why else..

so there you have it..saying I'm really good in communicating might be a bit much but I can keep the interest level high at all time..that's what you'll need the most when involving into an important conversation or just chatting with a friends..also if it's with someone u like, better try to keep that level terned on to the max so he/she will not get bored easily when talking with you..just sharing some tips here..even in works we sometimes need to communicate with other people which we have something to gain from them..so keeping the communication lively and heated is part of the way for us getting what we need from then..that's all for now then..

C&P IX

Love's Curse

by Jessica L. Reed (GothsMourning)

 

She couldn't stand the silence,

She couldn't stand the tears,

She couldn't stand her life,

After only sixteen years.

 

He was her entire world,

She gave him all she possessed,

He did the same in return,

They were thought to be obsessed.

 

Their love couldn't be reached,

Couldn't be touched by any other,

They were all they needed,

They only wanted each other.

 

From two they became one,

They made each other whole,

They filled each other's voids,

They filled each other's souls.

 

Everything was perfect,

Everything was great,

Till one damning day,

They were told they'd have to wait.

 

Her parents were moving her,

To a distant place,

They'd be torn apart,

Couldn't see each other's face.

 

They swore they'd make it work,

Vowed to stay together,

Didn't care about the distance,

They'd be together forever.

 

She gave it all she had,

She did her very best,

But he still slipped away,

He didn't pass the test.

 

While she was thinking of him,

He had found another,

He said he couldn't do it,

He talked it over with his mother.

 

She was devastated,

Her heart was torn straight out,

She'd been such a fool,

She should have listened to her doubt.

 

From then on they stopped talking,

Never spoke again,

While he was with his new girl,

She was dreaming of him.

 

Every day she'd cry,

She tried to fight off all the pain,

But the hurting never stopped,

Just shot through every vein.

 

Months went by since the ending,

But she only grew worse,

She couldn't accept what happened,

This was love's curse.

 

It finally overtook her,

She couldn't stand it anymore,

She grabbed a picture of him,

And snuck out the front door.

 

She walked into the woods,

Found a secluded place,

Kept thinking of the past,

And how she'd been replaced.

 

Hours later she was found,

In a pool of her blood,

And beside her they found,

His picture in the mud.

 

On the back read her reason,

Why she took her life,

What he did to her,

It seemed he had held the knife.

 

Though physically he didn't kill her,

He tore her soul apart,

It was obvious how she did,

It was from a broken heart.

I had been keeping poems, articles or stories I found on the net for years..the one above is just one of the many more I had..I found it's a good habit to store things like this as I can read it again sometimes later when I'm bored..most of all, I can use them as a base material for a post, message or etc..it really paid off..by the way, the poem above is a very dark one..plus very long..hehe..maybe that's why I feel attracted to keep it with me all these years..lol..just kidding..I keep it as a reminder so I'll never be the one that hold the knife someday..but when I think back, maybe I've been playing with a few knives without me even realizing..

Timefull XD

Is that really a word??well I don't care much..it's just a tittle anyway..I'll be having a lot of free times in this coming month or so I guessed XD..examination, practical, lectures and etc are all in the past now..the only thing left is this going on course..anyone familiar with the term KISSM??it's the acro for Kursus Induksi Sistem Saraan Malaysia..too lazy too translate so in my own simple words it'll be a course for introducing the working system..hurm, that didn't sounds close at all..don't bother about it..just a normal course I guess..full of talks for hours that for sure..and I recall hearing there will be an examination based on the content of the course at the end of this month..sigh, can't they let us go peacefully..heh..I would prefer an early holiday since this seems to be my last month as a student afterall..gonna be a working man starting December..sometimes it even feels unreal to me myself..but hey, life must go on..there's no stopping the flow of time anyway..eventhough I'll love to-

spent time with my classmate n friends..trips, bowling, karaoke or whatever..I don't mind..an,

all boys out sounded pretty nice anytime..although I prefer the company of some girls too..then,

maybe I'll join an outdoor camps..which I prefer much, much more over sitting for hours listening sleepily..so,

I can flung myself out into the wilderness seeking new knowledges and new adventures..or,

just chilling out by myself..thinking about what to do next and fantasizing how my future will be..

well..fantasy and reality would always found themselves contradicting each other..there's no helping to it then..better to tough it out until the end as usual..that's the stuff I'm made of anyway..good luck to me then =P

C&P VIII

Siapakah orang yang sibuk ?
Orang yang sibuk adalah orang yang tidak
mengambil berat akan waktu solatnya
seolah-olah ia mempunyai kerajaan seperti
kerajaan Nabi Sulaiman a.s

Siapakah orang yang manis senyumanya?
Orang yang mempunyai senyuman yang manis
adalah orang yang ditimpa musibah
lalu dia kata "Inna lillahi wainna illaihi rajiuun." Lalu
sambil berkata,"Ya Rabbi Aku redha
dengan ketentuanMu ini", sambil mengukir
senyuman.

Siapakah orang yang kaya?
Orang yang kaya adalah orang yang bersyukur
dengan apa yang ada dan tidak lupa
akan kenikmatan dunia yang sementara ini.

Siapakah orang yang miskin?
Orang yang miskin adalah orang tidak puas
dengan nikmat yang ada sentiasa
menumpuk-numpukkan harta.

Siapakah orang yang rugi?
Orang yang rugi adalah orang yang sudah sampai
usia pertengahan namun masih berat
untuk melakukan ibadat dan amal-amal kebaikan.

Siapakah orang yang paling cantik?
Orang yang paling cantik adalah orang yang
mempunyai akhlak yang baik.

Siapakah orang yang mempunyai rumah yang
paling luas?
Orang yang mempunyai rumah yang paling luas
adalah orang yang mati membawa
amal-amal kebaikan di mana kuburnya akan di
perluaskan saujana mata memandang.

Siapakah orang yang mempunyai rumah yang
sempit lagi dihimpit?
Orang yang mempunyai rumah yang sempit
adalah orang yang mati tidak membawa amal
amal kebaikkan lalu kuburnya menghimpitnya.

Siapakah orang yang mempunyai akal?
Orang yang mempunyai akal adalah orang-orang
yang menghuni syurga kelak
kerana telah mengunakan akal sewaktu di dunia
untuk menghindari siksa neraka.

Siapakah org yg KEDEKUT ?
Orang yg kedekut ialah org yg membiar atau
membuang mesej ini begitu sahaja,
malah dia tidak akan menyampaikan pula pada
org lain.

at least I'm not too stingy XD

Test ur eyes on this..

it's not moving you know XD

So it seems..

girls hv so much demand from a boy..so I'll make it short and say I hv only 1 demand from girls..that is I want....



the girl to come up to me 1st..so that I can distinguish between the girls who's interesting n the types which bored me to death..I don't have time to mingle with both sides anyway..n by the end of it, maybe....


as simple as that..maybe(again)..hard to find statisfying girl..considered yourself lucky if I tilt my head over to look..

Ragnarok Onlining again ^^

it's been a long since I last become involved in online gaming activities..sure was nostalgic thinking back to those days back then..nice, pleasant memories..haih..sure is nice to be younger..well, I'm not too old myself anyway..for those who doesn't have any idea whatsoever about what I'm saying here..go see for yourself then..the world where I indulged..hehe ^^

2nd week stories..

haih..another tiring yet fun week had ended..unfortunately, there weren't much free food this time..except for the routine preschool break filler, I only got 2 lunches served before LADAP session..it's ok I guess since the allowance had finally banked into account so finance is blooming at this period of time..estimatedly, half of them will be gone for bills and outstanding club fees plus I'm wanting for a bigger storage disk..I just couldn't wait to start downloading anime again..pity 1 of my favourite link has gone bad..still, I had a few others to turn to this time..owh, and I wonder when will the network service come back to normal..it's more than a month now I think since the connection deteriorated..I wonder what the real cause for the problem is..haih..

anyway, school sure are nice..except for the lesson planning part since it is too much of a hassle..still it really helped during teaching..heh..can't believe I'm getting close to becoming a real teacher anytime soon..I'm in the middle of improving the group learning activities with my partner..I started by giving the group leaders each a bag containing learning utensils and the worksheets for each activities that requires them..since the children are quite advance this time of the year, I saw that they are capable of listening to instructions from their peers plus the leaders had good leadership abilities..well, nothing much compared to mine when I was their age though..it just mean I can slowly release their hand to start grasping things on their own..of course there are still need for guidance and nurturing along the way..haih..incompetent brats..it's time they stand on their 2 feet instead of leaning toward their teacher..

the preschool are still quite new..just opened this year to be accurate..so there are still things needed to be added to the learning utilities..small scissors and glues are nowhere to be seen which leaves me no choice but to get them myself..now that money is not yet a problem, I generously bought all those stationary myself..lucky kiddies..where on earth can they get a practical as loving and caring as me..well, until I get totally assessed that is..hehehe..kids are naive and innocent??I see only disastrous, noisy, ungrateful brats..they couldn't understand nor even bothered about the reason I had to sacrifice my sleeping time finishing the lesson plans for them..then wasting my ink catridges to print teaching aids also for them to have a great learning experience..all they knew is to make a ruckuss everytime and everywhere..they are such a hassle..damn 'gakki'..

oh yeah..been making some outlines for the mural inside of the preschool ground..had to teach those little kids dance steps for the preschool anual carnival..and then being selected to be in the Floria Competition, which requires teachers to build a small lanscape for a self-picked theme..that somehow concludes my second week of practical in SKPP14(1)..oh yeah, I made a lot of controvesional statements also..haih..wonder what will happen next..

bothersome +_+

guess what I'm having now..stomachache..haih..must been from eating these expired bread I had in my room yesterday..they got some nice brownish fungi growing on some of them already but still that didn't bother me..until last night..guess I underestimate the poisoning capabilities those puny molt had in them..as a result, I had to be extremely rudely waken up by a sudden jolt of pain from my abdominal part and an insatiable call of the nature..and that happen repeatedly for five or six times already..so much for a good night sleep..haih..fortunately I'm quite prepared for this kind of situation already..a glass of warm milk really helped to lessen the uneasiness of my intestines and put my mind back into it's relaxed state..well, until further attack that is..

but what bother me the most is not this sort of normal malnutrition yet something which come from another field of science..more toward mystic and paranormal studies I suppose..around 3 o'clock(yes, this is a prime time for this sort of things to happen) I was suddenly woken up from my slumber..I felt someone or something just sat next to me on my bed..of course my sleepy brain came up with some blurred assumption that one of my friend must had decided to come crashing into my room for something..seems logical to me at that time and I decided to shut my eyes again and continue to sleep..but then I realized I couldn't move my body an inch..I came up with another sleepy assumption that my body must be numb and tried to change my sleeping position yet I still couldn't move anything part from my eyelids..I still didn't quite yet had my grasp onto the eerie reality which was around me at that moment..

then I felt that someone is watching me..maybe the person sitting next to me I suppose..by now I realized the deadly silent I heard in my room beside the sound of the ceiling fan working..my brain suddenly kick starts and analyzed the situation that within a few moments I became fully aware of the situation which I was unaware of a few 10-15 seconds ago..haha..it was funny when I think about it now..

1)the fact I'm now living alone in my room

2)my friends were soundly sleeping in their own rooms when I woke up because of the stomach pain earlier

3)it was so silent that it was actually kinda unnatural back then

4)my brain was so foggy I didn't realise at all what it was really happening

so that 'thing' was sitting next to me staring right at my back and I couldn't move a limb even thought I tried to..how uncool is that??my mind was racing to find a way to react while my ears keep on trying to catch any sound of movement from beside me..all that I know is 'it' is there, watching..the pressure I felt on my mattress suggest that it is still doing nothing over there..with the tension and frustation building inside, I told my body to move and turn around so I can look the culprit which is disrupting my sleep and forcing it way into my private space eye to eye(if it has it then)..tried as I might I couldn't budge an inch as if some unknown force was numbing my whole being and it wasn't fear..I had a taste of that long ago and it's nothing like what I was facing now and here..I keep on pushing my body urging them to move and finally my leg suddenly break free and I thrust it instinctively to where I assume 'it' was..thus I felt the pressence beside me dissapeared and my foot fail to connect what I thought it will but some other stuff I put on my bed and that send them flying across the floor..

I turned around quickly hoping to see some form of the 'thing' which was bugging me but it had just left I guess..I couldn't even sense it presence anywhere in the room by then..whatever it was, it was not malicious but more toward curiousity-driven or maybe a bit cheeky..as for me, well that add up another one to my current rate of encounter with the third kind..yeah, I had a bunch of similar experience already..some are even terrifying to remember..what it was??what it want??I have absolutely no idea..but I'll try to keep in mind to ask that if I manage to trigger it interest to visit me again in the future..or maybe..visiting you will come in next for it..tell him I said "hi" ok..hehe ^^

p/s: now that I think of it..it's not so bothersome actually..there are other which is more bothering than this..haih

3rd Practical-1st week..

kids in putrajaya p14(1) sure are strange..for the 1st time ever I met some who prefer given works to do than allowed to play as much as they like..strange isn't??could there be something wrong with their train of thought, I wonder..but then again, I couldn't care less..for as far as I'm concerned..as long as this six weeks went well then I've nothing to complained about..maybe I'll study them as part of my course assignment required..right now, it's much more important to put back my teaching gear into action and shape those little dwellers like I used to do in the past..haih..gonna be a bit tough now since there is a hyperactive kid in clase and a few underages children as well..these immature brats is like a time bomb without a definite way to determine when they'll explode and cause a ruckuss..still, nothing a slight raise of tone and a murderous stare couldn't handle for now..

on the other hand, the school is very nice..I got plenty to eat everyday and that saved food my allowance very much..just what I need to lighten up my tight account until my next payday..huhu..can't wait to get my hand on huge sum of cash to spend again..

p/s:my school is kinda active as well..so many activities planned for each days forcing me to stay at school until evening..then again, since that means more free things to eat then I just couldn't complain about it..^^

Still in the Laziness =_=

laziness..one of my main weaknesses..haih..can't help it when having this kind of feeling..an urge to lay down and laze around day and night..I guess I'm still in the mood for holiday..such a bother..well that's it for now..hehehe =P

p/s: enjoy my c&p then..hehe =P

C&P VII

Does Your Name Fit You??

TRY IT...

A: Likes to flirt.
B: Likes to talk.
C: Really likes to chill.
D: Is one of the best personalities
ever.
E: Good Kisser
F: People adore you.
G: Never let people tell you what to
do.
H: Has a very good personality and
looks.
I: Is always there for friends
J: Lives life for fun.
K: Really silly.
L: Loved by everyone
M: makes dating fun
N: Dead sexy
O: Best in realtionships
P: Popular with all types of people
Q: A hypocrite.
R: Freakin crazy
S: Easy to fall in love with.
T: a sweet heart.
U: Really wild and crazy.
V: Not judgemental.
W: Very broad minded.
X: Never let people tell you what to do
Y: One of the best bf/gf anyone could
ask for.
Z: Always ready

mine is AHMAD FIKRI..
which mean I:
like flirting, have good look and personalities(I'm flattered), makes dating fun, is one of the best ever, adorable, always there for friends(I wonder), really silly and freaking crazy(hahaha)..
what about u??

c&p VI

so what about guys you say..read it yourself..

WHEN A GUY

When a guy calls you,
he wants to be with you

When a guy is quiet,
He's listening to you...

When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes he's wrong

When a guy says, "I'm fine, "
after a few minutes,
he means it

When a guy stares at you,
he wishes you would care about him and
wonders if you do

When you're laying your head on a guy's
chest,
he has the world

When a guy calls you everyday,
he is in love

When a (good) guy tells you he loves
you,
he means it

When a guy says he can't live without
you,
he's with you till your done

When a guy says, "I miss you, "
he misses you more than you could have
ever missed him or anything else

or so they say..
hehehe..
^_^

c&p V

haven't been posting for quite a time now..so here some C&P from my personal collection..

When a girl bumps into your arm...

When a girl bumps into your arm
while walking she wants
you to hold her hand

When she wants a hug
she will just stand there

When u break a girls heart,
she still feels it when
u run into each other 3 years later

When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through
her mind.

When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyes
full of questions,
she is wondering how long you will be
around.

When a girl answers, "I'm fine, "
after a few seconds,
she is not at all fine.

When a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are so
wonderful.

When a girl lays her head on your
chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers
forever.

When a girl says that she can't live
without you,
she has made up her mind that you are
her future.

When a girl says, "I miss you, "
no one in this world can miss you more
than that

When a girl is mean to you after a
breakup
she wants you back, but she's
scared she'll get hurt and knows
you're gone forever

is it really so, girls??
hehehe..