snorkeling vs snorekling..

during my last visit to the beach a few days ago, I went snorkeling..which was my 1st time actually..I had never participate in any activities involving being under water for a long period of time beside this holding-breath-under-the-water competition which usually held during short trips to the beach with a bunch of friends..this involve a group of guys and sometime girls also try to held their breath under the water too see which one of them that could do so for as the longest period..haah~ it sure bring back memories..good times, good times..anyway, unlike the usual snorkeling activities which we done in the open seas, I snorkeled in a man-made pool which was filled with salt-water from the sea and more or the less a simple under water ecosystem..this include marine life such as multiple kind of fishes, one sea turtle, man made corals and a few sunken tires and ship..well not the big kind of ship really..it was just a normally seen fisherman's boat a.k.a the "sampan"..I had plenty of fun inside there..watching, feeding, touching the fishes give me a lot of ease in both mind and heart..it makes me forget about the harsh, hot land..wonder if we could build a utopia inside of this cold, serenading, under water world..
moving on to snorekling..yes this is a word which seems quite similar but have another kind of meaning..this term comes from the root word "snore" which is used to show an act of snoring during sleep..and of course, I made it up myself to spice up the title a little bit..don't use this word in an academic writing..I used it to show the wonderful and relaxing holiday I am having right now..which I spent most of the time on my bed..but I don't snore while I'm sleeping of course..I exaggerate the tittle a little bit..
seems like this will be my final post for this year..not pretty much to covered up another year ending..well like I care..
hehehe
^_^

seeking for a lifetime's companion??

I went to yet another one of my friend marriage ceremony yesterday..it seems more of the people that I used to know have started moving onto the next level in life..the life of marriage..heh, some of them are already in the world of parenthood right now with two kids..people around my age group are all starting to leave their singleness and share their world with another person..now they have one more pair of ears which listen to their worries and problems instead of their own..while I'm still licking my own wound they already have someone to dress their injuries and soothes the pain..they chat with each other, holding hand happily and I'm just talk to myself with my hands deep inside my pocket..and much more had they gained from this life of marriage..I wish them happiness from the bottom of my empty heart..



I can just wonder, if I'll ever find my own happiness like theirs..when I am....me..well whatever will be will be, I suppose..right now, I still had a long road ahead of me without a slightest idea of when or how it will end..even whitout someone to hold my hand and accompany me through my journey, I must carry on..dragging my boredom on my back..

hahaha
^_^

side notes: this is not an advertisement for an ice breaking..

0 existence

the title above is suppose to be read as 'zero existence'..just so you know..


laying back on my bed with ruffled bedsheet and comforter..I raise my arm high and then put it across my face..haih~~what am I doing??thinking about myself, wandering through my fantasies, getting lost in thought, fathoming what my future will be..all this while laying motionlessly on the crumpled bed cloth..
so much for holidays..I'll be spending most of the time I have on bed as ussual..while my friends and colleagues probably making use of their time with family bonding, trips and dates, I will be here on my bed for 3/4 of my daily life..I'm not sick, involved in accident or whatever..this is just what I do during my free times..shifting back into the shadow..relaxing..rejuvenating..hibernating and so on..

haaaahhhh~~this is life..

hehehe
^_^

Melayu!!

Ini terbitan pertama aku dalam BM untuk blog ni..sebab utamanya adalah,aku nak menulis tentang bangsa aku dan aku tak nak gunakan bahasa lain untuk itu..jadi aku pun guna bahasa yang boleh difahami oleh semua golongan yang berada di dalam rumpun Melayu seantero dunia..
setiap kali baca surat khabar,ada tiga segmen yang paling aku tak suka nak tengok tapi terpaksa tengok..segmen jenayah, hiburan dan politik..sebabnya ketiga-tiga segmen ini banyak menonjolkan kisah-kisah yang memalukan bangsa Melayu..kadangkala aku berasa segan nak menjamah cerita-cerita sedemikian kerana ianya seakan-akan aku sedang melihat kealpaan diri sendiri..tetapi untuk mengetahui apakah gerangan keadaan orang Melayu masa kini, aku terpaksa menguatkan tekad dan teruskan membaca..maka tersingkaplah satu persatu kisah sedih, pedih dan memalukan anak bangsa Melayu masa kini..
berfokuskan kepada segmen hiburan kali ini, aku memang menyampah kalo tengok gambar-gambar artis Melayu terutamanya perempuan yang ada pada kertas surat khabar itu..belum lagi aku membaca kisah-kisah menarik dan sensasi kononnya berkenaan diri mereka..pada pendapat diri aku yang berkemungkinan jumud ini, cerita seperti itu tiada kaitannya dengan diri aku lantas tak perlulah nak dihebah-hebahkan ke serata negara..publisiti-publisiti seperti inilah yang membuatkan mereka semakin rancak berkecimpung dalam dunia yang dipenuhi maksiat dan dosa itu..kemudian keluarlah pula kata-kata seperti "saya sekadar mencari sumber rezeki yang sah" dan "saya masih sedar batas-batas agama" yang membuatkan aku semakin kagum dengan keberanian mereka memperkatakan kebodohan diri sendiri..bukan niat aku nak mencerca bidang yang mereka ceburi malahan diri mereka yang kerap terpapar di kaca televisyen, majalah dan sebagainya, tetapi mentaliti dan ketidaksedaran diri mereka itu yang membuatkan aku cukup bengang dengan cara hidup mereka.."kalau kau nak sangat hidup macam orang barat, baik kau pergi saja ke sana" antara yang selalu bermain dalam fikiran aku tiapkali aku mendapat berita berkenaan artis-artis ini..
kejayaan terbaru, ASK2008..tahniah kepada pihak yang berkenaan kerana telah mendedahkan kepada rakyat di Malaysia khususnya remaja dan kanak-kanak berkenaan dunia hiburan masa kini..dedahan tersebut banyak mempamerkan aksi-aksi artis yang mendedah kepada masyarakat muda ini..dengan adanya pendedahan seperti ini, maka golongan-golongan muda yang akan menjadi pendokong bangsa di masa akan datang akan menjadi semakin terdedah kepada dunia tersebut..mudah-mudahan mereka juga mampu menandingi kadar dedahan itu apabila mereka semakin mendedahkan diri mereka di kawasan-kawasan awam seluruh ibu kota..siaran seperti inilah yang memberi pendedahan kepada mereka mengenai bahagian-bahagian tubuh badan yang perlu didedahkan untuk menarik perhatian masyarakat..dedahan-dedahan ini mampu menjana lebih banyak lagi gejala sosial yang mampu menjunamkan lagi nilai moral dan ekonomi warganegara Malaysia di masa akan datang..tahniah sekali lagi dan terima kasih daun keladi lain kali dedahlah lagi..
bukan soal aurat yang aku cukup bengangkan tetapi ke'bangang'an pihak-pihak tertentu yang mempamerkan pendedahan artis itu kepada masyarakat negara ini khususnya generasi muda..sikap mengaut suka mengaut keuntungan mudah inilah yang menyumbang kepada kejatuhan nilai moral muda-mudi masa kini..cukup pening aku memikirkan masalah mentaliti masuk dunia hiburan terus tak sedarkan diriini..belum lagi isu 'dunia Melayu' yang selalu disebut-sebut macam gah sangat padahal tak segagah manapun..
apa itu dunia Melayu??mungkin ada rezeki di lain hari aku akan sisipkan disini..pada masa ini, aku sudah lapar sebenarnya..perut mula meminta untuk diisi jadi sampi disini sajalah buat masa ini..
hehehe
^_^

mask

everyday, I wake up from my slumber, go the bathroom, brush my teeth, wash my face and then back to my room..I start changing into my daily clothes while thinking about this day ahead of me..all the chores waiting for me, all these peoples I need to meet, all the things I need to do..just then, I put on the 'mask'..
this mask is not like the one you can buy in the shop or like anything you saw in a masquarade..this mask is made from a layer of skin which really is my face..this mask can talk, laugh and keep smiling through out the day..it is as lively as any other faces u seen or have yet it is just a mask..
the reason I call it a mask, because it serves that function really well..keeping my real expression hidden underneath it so nobody will notice what my feeling is actually at that time..people will blame me for acting this way..some might even says that I'm being hyphocrite..but I'm not doing this for my own gain..it's for their own good I tell you..I mean people cannot ussualy stand to be asking for help from someone with a bored and gloomy face..they'll feel like they are much inferior to this kind of people if it is them they are asking for a favour from..it's nobody fault..really..it's just the way a human is..
I got a few other masks which I wear when the time needed..a sad mask for a teary occassion, a straight faced mask in a serious event and even an innocent-guilty looking mask which I use when avoiding conflict with others..sometimes I even make a special mask for special circumstances example loving looking during a date, a concern look for an unfortunate event and more..yet, all of them are just used to hide my real, hollow looking face..cause of the intense boredom which I suffered..
other people also have their own mask..I presume this, especially actors, celebrities and politicians must all had a dark side which they can never shown to public..I understand even normal people have to fake their expressions once in a while also..that is a gift which they should not have to begin with..because from there, lies, betrayal, hate, jealousy, greed, gluttony, sloth and pride were born into human..with just a mere hope, they must cling thightly to continue on surviving their brief lifespan..if only they couldn't use this mask, the world would have been an even better place for them..
althought, it will be the same for me..always had been and always to come..

dark soul

worthless..that's how I really feel about myself right now..no..I think it had been like that for even longer..this is not humility..not even solf-conciousness..it's just the way I am..for a long, long, long time..ever wondered what the point of living??I had like in every waking momment..it's just that..I got lost track of things so easily..things which are supposed to be important..things which will meant the most..things..all sort of things..things I keep ignoring..yeah..ignorant is the most suitable word for me..
right now..I'm nothing more but a lump of flesh and blood waiting for this day to end..or even for my life..I just can't keep up with all this boredom filling up within me..annoying yet nothing I'll do ever statisfying..does that mean I'm too conceited??what does it mean anyway..I just use it because that what came up in me..hah..damn..will I be getting bored to death here..in all my past..all that I can remember is the bored feeling whenever I become familiar with something..be it a sport, games, hobbies whatever..dont even talk about fashion..it didn't last for more than half a day to me..nothing seems to be enough for me..once I learned how to do things..then all that I can see is the times I'll be repeating the same things over and over again..it will always be the same thing from that point onward..nothing ever change after that..all I did was running in circle..not getting anywhere..
how can everybody else be changing yet I'm still the same..frustated..lost interest in things that I do..why can't something be enough for me..anything..I played a hundred games a week yet I never finished more than 1 or two..once I mastered all the element there is in the game then the loop will start..always the same things to do..leveling up..beating the boss..I had to level up to be able to defeat it..yet leveling up is repeating the same thing over and ever again..until at certain level I'll be sure to defeat the last boss of the game..why can't I fight it when I'm still weak and not getting a game over??
heck..I dont even understand what I'm saying here..I lost interest in typing so this is where it'll end..nothing more after this fullstop..

One Final Push..

One week..just one more work to go for my practical experiences..in this week, I will have a combine observation from both my guidance lecterur and teacher,  two full days class to teachs and a few assignment that need to be done..just thinking about them makes me tired..:sigh:..yet I must go on forward even if it mean dragging my sleep time by burning the midnight oils..I don't have much choices left now..so I must push on toward the end of this week..because, when this is all over..it's holiday time for me..
hehehe
^_^

7th-10th day..the compilation >_<

7th day
more or the less it's the same story with the 6th..the only difference is that I had to teach the children formally since it's my turn to conduct the class..nothing special happened on this day but on the next day..

8th day
Mr Khamizan the next class teacher had to take an mc yet again FOR 2 DAYS..he said maybe he had food poisoning or something and couldn't come to his class..this leave us no choice but to take turn watching over his class while one of us teaching at our actual class..even so, the day when on rather smoothly..those children enjoy themselves greatly during my last lesson when we had a role play activities..they were very excited to take part in the play and couldn't wait to take turn acting..I stayed at the school until late in the afternoon because we(the practical teachers) were asked to lend our hands in the qiraat classes..since they provide us with the lunch so I couldn't complain more..the Main problem is during my way home..suddenly the rain started to pour down heavily soaking me down to the boot..what can I say, I ride a motorcycle to school everyday..luckily I had a poncho(a sort of raincoat I think) in my box provide a small shelter for my things(files, educational aid etc) but my pants and boots were all soaked by the water..my first experience of this kind..hahaha =P

day 9
the class turns into a singing practise because the children had to perform something for the school event the next day..so the children just practise singing and then watched vcd all day long..that's all I think..

the 10th day
first of all, on the way to school a problem occured to my rides..the motorcycle's exhaust pipe CAME OFF!!really, this is not a joke..the exhaust really came off while I was riding..it was a shock when my bike suddenly when BOM BOOM BOOMM like a big bike ussually sounds..but when I think about it later, it was pretty funny actually..all my friends laugh when I shared this experience with them..hahaha ^0^..secondly, the performance didn't go well at all..mostly because of the last minute technical problem we faced..the computer breakdowns, we couldn't find the same song and those kids couldn't sing well since they are not familiar with the songs we used..a true disastruos day..lastly, I had to pay rm60 for a new exhaust pipe..haih T_T

well that is all for this week practical exp..what will happen next, I wonder ?_?

The 6th day..

the class teacher is still on MC leave..she will not be here until this coming wednesday..haih..this is the 2nd week of my practical experience..the theme for this week is still the same like last week..it's on the National Day..what else will I say about today..hurmm =_=..assembly early this morning was cut short by the pouring rain..I was so sleepy from staying up last night that I had to sleep through the morning classes..then when I woke up, my partner was showing those children some of his video clips of last year 'merdeka' celebration..later, we let them do some works in their excersize books..that's that until the end of the day..another calm day I guess =_=

Friday the 5th

Another lazy day..both of the homeroom teachers are on mc again..so it's just me and my trusty partner again..luckily the school is having a choir competition for the primary students..I just take advantage of this situation and bring those kids to the venue and enjoy the show..
but they had to get themselves bored and started to make some noise..how annoying..those ungrateful brats..now they are happily watching a movie in the classroom..no problem here..
hehehe
^_^

day 4..GTF-the reborn

the next door teacher was back..so me and my partner can focus back to the class we're supposed to handle..with one situation out of the frame, I can get back to work on the bigger picture..controlling my chaotic-noisy-annoying-bratty class..1st of all, I get rid of the clingging and hugging since it is sooooooo annoying..everytime one of the children try to hold my hands or try to hug, I quickly brushed them asside..now that I've put on a distance between myself and them, they just linger around me..not so comfy but better than before..maybe I should snarl whenever they come around me..hahaha..just a menacing stare had been fine..still I got the issue of classroom control which greatly hinders the lesson progress..after a few tries & errors, I finally came up with a suitable solution for this matter..it's to get physical with them..nothing a bit of muscle and strenght can't handle..NO, I'm not saying about physical assault or something..I just give them a small physical activity everytime they start to lose their attention to my teaching..I must say that my thesis-making day has given me a lot of ideas on how to came up with spontaneous activities..all I did was give those children a lite activity involving them moving their so they can release their energy which had been building for a while..this works like a charm really..
now my classroom control is much better..plus those brats also enyoy themselves greatly which is also a good thing..now they pay much more attention on what I'm going to do next..kids, they are much too pure and naive..:evil laugh:..they even fell for a simple rise up and down activity..when I get back, I'll be listing all the small work out that I can think of for my future lesson periods..those kids won't know what hit them..wakaka >:)
just in case anyone is still wondering what the GTF is all about, I'll tell you now..but I should had pity all of those who are so lame and slow if I had any heart at all..GT stands for Great Teacher..the F is my name but I wont be telling that to you guys..ciao
hehehe
^_^
(p/s- for those who is planning to become a teacher him/herself, don't do this to your pupils and students..it'll hurt your consceince badly >:P)

Practical..day 3 +_+

both of the homeroom teacher are out today..so my partner and I had both classes to ourselves..I'll talk about my class experience then..it was like 40% in control and the rest was totally out of control..the children was talking among themselves while I was teaching which occassionally end with me walking to their side and bring one of them to the front so they can't talk with each other then..and there were also some kids playing at the back which boiled my blood..when I raise up my voice they all keep quite for a while before start playing again..it was so noisy in my class..almost chaotic I think..I wonder if I'm not fierce enough..I had already hid all of my smiley and cheery faces all the times here along with my emotion..my face shown no expression while my stares are all glaciery cold..I never showed them much of an attention but they sure keep coming to hold my hands and giving me a hug every now and then..how can they still be attracted to me now..what wrong with kids nowaday..they are supposed to be unfamiliar with me and I should have been hard to approach by them..this is totally wierd..
I'm sure that girls will feel agitated when I give them the cold shoulder..since I'm not the fairy-tales-prince type of a guy..this make them feel the attraction towards me..but I'm talking about
6 year olds preschool children..they are supposed to feel afraid of stranger..the uneasiness is what I aim to sow into their heart..after all, that is what I am to them right now..but heck no, they just keep coming for me..kids nowaday sure are strange..totally..but I'm not going to be defeated by the like of them..I'll make them obey me..in time..
huhuhu
T_T

the call..

it was late that evening, when my friends and I just came back after having dinner at the outside and we were just going to eat some ice cream for desert..then a friend of mine recieved a call..an urgent distress call..we quickly grab our gear which we had put down earlier and after a short discussion two of us decide to answer that call of help..one was me, and the other one was db aka the white knight..and so, us two rushed to our trusty motocycles and rode like the wind with the intention of saving the damsel in distress..when we arrive at the scene..
to be continued..

The thing with astrology is..

Sometimes I really wonder..is there really such thing as a lucky star??do our stars really affect our life??will I be like this because I'm born under a certain star??can I really let my constellation guide me through my life??what is this astrology actually and what so great about it??
what is astrology??well according to wikipedia "Astrology (from Greek ἄστρον, astron, "constellation, star"; and -λογία, -logia) is a group of systems, traditions, and beliefs in which knowledge of the apparent relative positions of celestial bodies and related details is held to be useful in understanding, interpreting, and organizing information about personality, human affairs, and other terrestrial matters. A practitioner of astrology is called an astrologer or an astrologist. Numerous traditions and applications employing astrological concepts have arisen since its earliest recorded beginnings in the 3rd millennium BC. It has played a role in the shaping of culture, early astronomy, and other disciplines throughout history..." and yada yada yada..so in a word, the star give you tips on how to live..can you believe that??all the massive, luminious, lifeless plasma balls giving you signs concerning your attitude, prosperity, love and so on..hell yeah..they actually know you better than your parent, siblings, relatives and friends..how very convenient that is..they will give you guidence and help you through out your live..hahaha..owh come on..even they doesn't have a clue how long they'll be shining in the outer space until their gases diminished..
no offence to all the past star gazers and astrologists, but the only thing the star is good at is pointing the way for ships and travelers which is lost and doesn't have a compass or gprs system at the time..they are usefull there..I give them that..but pointing the ways for me to live my life..that's all so ridiculous..here something about Aries since that is what I'm born under..
"The sign of the Ram is graced by the element of Fire, and if you were to use one word to describe Aries, it could easily be heat. People born under this sign have a passion and red-hot energy, which often proves irresistible. It's certainly never boring! Aries likes to initiate relationships, and the role of seducer comes to them easily. This sizzling romance dance will only work on those strong enough to stay in the game, because Aries wants a partner who can go toe-to-toe with them, whether it's over lunch or under the covers. Aries likes to get its way and often pits the wishes of self against what is best for the partnership, which can lead to conflict. These battles, though, are often foreplay, which can result in some sexy fireworks of their own. The Ram is possessed of a great physicality, a sense of adventure, is wildly flirtatious and loves to play."
well what do you know..I'm a seducer..how I never noticed that in me..hahaha..maybe I'm actually an incubus under a human skin..hahaha..trust me..I'm not a charmer..and not ever going into seducing unless I became a vampire or whatever..
which make me come into a conclusion..this is all crackpot..don't bother me with it..the reason I talk about this is I always got invite and spam concerning love compatibility, life secret and all the other nonesense..how stupid do they think I am to buy into all their stories and lies..so whoever had the idea of coming to see me regarding all this stuff, be prepare..an early precaution..

Things I had miss the most T_T

1- Ragnarok Online

An online which I had been playing since in the matriculation..one of the best reason why I almost failed during that time..hahaha..ragnarok online or ro has been an enjoyable game where I meet a lot of people and gain some income(hehe ^^)..but now due the connection problems, I haven't been online for quite a period..I don't know wether I'll be able to continue playing or not so I'm missing it badly..huhuhu T_T

2- Old nakamas
 
Nakamas are friends or buddies in japanese..these guys are from the PISMK batch(which is I'm in right now) back when we were at IPBA earlier..some are still with me now so I don't miss them but to those who had been transfered far, far away..I miss you guys..take care okay

3- my classmate in secondary school

we are only together for like 2 years but hey, they are like family to me..

4- Dancing

I may not look like it now, but I used to be dancing back in the old days..I wouldn't say that I'm that good but I can dance at least..I don't see myself doing it anytime in the future but the memories are my precious treasure..the musics, the rhythms, the steps, choreograph, the sensation are all so hard for me to let go off(not forgetting the cute dancers and madam hehe)..I just wish......

anyway, these are some of things that I've been missing these past few years..as for other thing like my family, I don't really miss them because I can always think of them and then give em a call..hahaha..somethings are better left the way it is for now..
hehehe
^_^

A Day at the PIKOM PC FAIR 2008

Yesterday, I went to the annual PIKOM Pc Fair at KLCC to accompany some of my fellow friends and hoping to catch a glimpse of the new gadgets and technos there(and to get all the freebies ^^)hehehe..my group was at the site for almost 3 hours looking and trying to find the stuffs that we want to buy..man, it was crowded in there which is as ussual..a lot of people confined in the halls making it hard for us to move around freely..it was very packed I tell you..for those who have been there before, you'll get the ideas..the same sight each year, a lot of people in a closed room with 1 way traffic..maybe they should take it outside and do it in the open for a change..hahaha..my friends bought thumbdrives, memory card, digital camera and some printer's ink..myself, I don't buy anything..just taking all the free things that I could get especially goodies bags..hehehe..actually I can get all the gadgets at Low Yat Plaza with almost the same prices, so it was the goodies bag that I was after there..hahaha..I had some great time at the PC Fair..bdw, today is the last day for the fair and it will be much packed than yesterday..I hope no one will get hurt in the commotion..it's a jungle out there..
hehehe
^_^

All good things must come to an end T_T

tenma
some of the characters

I've been following a manga entittled School Rumble for almost 2 years now..sadly, the story has come to an end..huhu..the manga itself is really nice with multiple genres including comedy, romance and action..this manga that I read bring the reader into a world of Japanese High School Student with quite a twist..1 thing I like the most is the growth or the delopment of the character inside the story itself..it have a delinquent whos trying the win the heart of the thick headed girl he loves and when he fail try to become a manga artist, a thick headed girl who had a crush on a weird guy, a princess type girl who suddenly realize that she's in love with a delinquent, a weird guy who is actually a top manga artist, a little sister who can see the thought of people who like her and a bunch of other types of characters including a mucha wrestler from mexico..all this characters interact with each other building a great bond while sharing the ups and downs of life..the story may focus on the characters trying to find their one true love, but in the same time there are building tensions and suspens when things dont turn out as what it is supposed to be..plus this manga is packed with a lot of humor and great comedy gurranteed to put a smile on your face while you are reading it.."why so serious?"..hahaha..that one is from the Joker in The Dark Knight..back to my topic, I really love this manga..there are even more great things inside it which I didn't put into words here coz it will take long..the manga have 22 volumes if I must say..so you will not be finishing it that easily..hehehe..after all consideration, this is a great manga..I give it a 5 star rating myself..
hehehe
^_^
eri is kinda cute

my favourite girl ^^

p/s:School Rumble Z is on its way..yay for me..haha ^^

My Life as a Student Council Member

Being a member of the Student Council or a JPP is not something new to me..I've been in this kind of organization during my matriculation year..even so, the situation is not the same..I mean it is totally different being a JPP in college and a JPP in this institute..the workload is totally heavier now that I'm in an institute..hehehe..hours of meeting until late night, a lot programmes that need my attention and a couple of problem coping with my life as student..I'm not here to say I'm regreting my decision to become one..what I truly want is to be able to make a different in the life of the IPIS students..for the better(or the worse =P)..hahaha..the reason I'm here is not for my personal gain (well not all) but for all of students who need an assistance and providence..I just hope I can take on this burden and fulfill my responsibilities in the short time I'm given with..
hehehe
^_^

My 1st Post

This not my 1st time to post actually..Well it is da 1st post here in my own blog page but I've been around for quite sometime already..I just fell that it's time for me to settle down at a place of my own..and here I am..from now on, here is my lair I guess..hehehe ^^

my old class..I wonder how it is now..